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RANT on values suck the life out of us.

Work and no play. Play and no work.

What happens to us after high school, or college? What happens to people who are forced to transition into the “real world”. What is the real world.

I gotta tell you, I just don’t know anymore. the more I see the news, and the more I walk this earth I see why people loose their minds and go off the “deep end”. Drinking, drugs, strippers, over eating. Life gets in the way, or life becomes to overwhelming that you can’t find magic, or happiness because your to busy trying to stay a float. 

40 hour weeks, get longer and the pay looks the same. Bills trickle and before you know it, you don’t even see your paycheck because it sucked in. Do we need cell phones, the internet, cable, a car, childcare, food, electricity, water, gas, alarm systems, animals, doctor visits. The shit is ridiculous and COSTLY!  

Then you watch the news (if you have the right channels/cable) to realize you can’t trust anyone with your kids, not even family at times. You might of went to College or University and owe thousands of dollars, and now you have the degree that was suppose to be the “Ultimate” success, but now you basically pay a car note monthly to honor your loan, stay in good standings just to work at a job that pays a little higher than the min wage. Oh but he min wage has been increased, your paycheck hasn’t, your responsibilities “as assigned” have quadrupled but your stuck with the same pay and you see your family less. Let alone, your losing your passion for life, for things that once made you smile because of sheer exhaustion. You put more out than you receive, No one is paying you your worth or recognizing that your working hard to keep up with the impossible goal or “action plan”. 

Its become so ridiculous…I see why people get us and move to Europe or they head to the smallest island where life is simple and the focus on work is minimal. You can actually stop and enjoy life, people, and still make decent income bc a descent home doesn’t cost you your life. 

So they have raised min wage, do you think they have raised wages across the board for non-profit workers? But ITT gets big bucks. We don’t care for our people like we should, we don’t value humans.

Get rich or dye trying is what we do every day. I know that job you have committed and dedicated your time and skills to should be honorary to your commitment. They should be willing to care for you when your sick, show their gratitude for your time spent improving the community, and “data.” 

Non-profit workers do so much for the community and they get the shorter end of the stick. We don’t help each other. WE see our kids dying; murder, suicide, suffering from behavioral health management, foster homes, abuse, hungry kids, lead to hungry adults. Our system has gaps, it was designed to help, but it does more damage. Unable to maintain workers because they are burnt out within 6 months to a year. I am one of these workers, my heart is big, my passion is countless, I wish I could do more…so much more that I dream of making a difference. But those dreams are shattered when I walk into the office and see more paper work needed than me out there with the people that truly need coaching in the right direction. There is no direction to go to, there are no services. It could be because when we did have services people abused them, it could be that services were given to the biggest liars, and actors.  It could be that we have more needs now than we have ever had. Or it could be that people need to be smarter when making babies to think further, knowing that kids need formula, diapers, to be with other kids their age, in school, help with homework and be loved for the rest of the life. I don’t know what it is, I don’t have a solution, I just know that it hurts to see people in pain, it hurts to know that people are being taught that it okay to step on people who are trying to make a difference just to get ahead by half an inch. Its like when your in traffic and someone cuts in front of you, just to arrive at the same destination at the same time. Its pointless!

I just can’t stand to see the route the world is going. I’m scared for my kids, I’d like to believe my husband and I would be here forever to protect them…but everyday we wake up, we know we take a risk of the unknown. Should I think like that, is it healthy, no its not. But there is no other way…I worry. I worry about my kids, my family, my community, your community, your kids, your family. Because it affects us all.

Sept 11, 2011, December 12, 2012, Treyvon Martin, Our troops…oh my gosh, our young men and women that want to make a change, want to protect America, but we don’t have enough resources to help you once your out in civilian life.   Amber alerts, people killing children, parents dealing with this, siblings dealing with a loss, or shootings that take a life of two, or 50, 100’s 1000’s, behavioral health unfunded, CPS workers trying to make a difference but at not able to because of policy, critics, bullies…and the list goes on.

Today isn’t the only day that i think of this, it will not be the last time I think of this. 

How to deal, when your eyes are wide open and you have been exposed. I am not numb to what is going on…but I am in survival mode. 

Upset and disgusted, but expected to carry on. 

Pray that the lord give us strength, bc we all need it to get thru our day. 

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Posted by on September 14, 2013 in Uncategorized


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